La Duda

Standard

Doubt-2

Este año ha sido sin duda uno de los mejores, pero también uno de los mas difíciles, ya que ha sido el que ha traído mas dudas, temores, pruebas para mi Fe, y mis sueños.

Últimamente me he encontrado con muchas dudas sobre mi mismo, y sobre mis metas,  me veo al espejo y me pregunto si en verdad habrá algo mas. Me pregunto si en realidad soy tan bueno para las cosas que me apasionan, si en verdad merezco el perdón y amor de Dios, si podre escalar ese muro que cada vez es mas alto, hace unas semanas alguien me hizo una pregunta que me sacudió, una pregunta que me hizo caer de ese muro que escalaba con tanto cuidado y lentitud. No fue una mala pregunta, o con intenciones maliciosas, solo era la duda de alguien quien se preocupaba por mi futuro.

“¿Que pasa si no se da lo que tienes planeado, cual es tu plan B?”, 

Estas simples palabras me hicieron ver que efectivamente no hay, ni tengo, un subalterno objetivo. No hay otro plan mas que el A, el cual contiene mis verdaderos sueños y metas, hacer lo que de verdad anhelo y quiero. Pero esa duda me hizo caer, volví a ver el muro, pero esta vez era mas alto, y este asta arriba decía ‘duda’, me limpie la cara, y decidí tirarlo, no escalarlo, ya que no era un muro para hacerme mejor, la duda no era algo que me ayudaría a ser fuerte, solo algo que destruiría mis sueños, era un estorbo, entonces fui por un martillo y desde aquel momento lo he estado derrumbando, aquí es donde me encuentro, en el momento de la decisión, ya que no quiero dudar mas de mi mismo, la duda solo demora nuestros sueños para que parezcan imposibles de alcanzar. Ya no quiero que dudar, ya no quiero temer, este muro es el ultimo obstáculo que tengo que saltar, es el ultimo diablo que tengo que callar. Porque es cuando estamos increíblemente cerca de nuestro sueño, meta, o propósito, que hacen al diablo lanzar la ultima piedra para confundirnos.

No intenten escalar ese muro, tampoco se tiren al suelo porque es muy alto, ese es el plan del diablo, querer vernos rendidos.

Es cuando estamos enfrente del éxito que por ultima vez dudamos, solo tenemos que tirar el muro y decir,”Si puedo lograrlo”.

 Y Jesús les respondió: «En verdad os digo que si tenéis fe y no dudan, no sólo harán lo que se ha hecho con la higuera, sino que aun si decís a este monte: Quítate y échate en el mar “, así sucederá.-Mateo 21:21

tumblr_madek8LU1E1rgf0deo1_500

FEAR

Standard

Image

Now, this is, or has to be, one of the worst rivals we face, fear is just as bad as depression, you see, both work together, but somehow fear manages to attack everyone single one of us, depression is terrible, but not everyone falls into it’s claws, fear, however, fear is a threat we all face, we are all afraid of something, failure, darkness, an animal, a certain happening, etc…

Image

 

Fear is a huge deal, it’s also thanks to fear that our dreams can’t become a reality, fear pays a huge role in all of us. Fear can be this HUGE terrible thing, however, it also can be a HUUUUGE help. …how? It is thanks to fear that we are able to overcome something, fear is a barrier between you and your objective, fear is a threat, obstacle, barrier, wall, but its also a KEY, fear is helpful, because fear makes us brave, we can’t be brave if we don’t have fear. Some people think that those that are brave have never felt fear, that they have never been afraid, but those people are mistaken, you see, one can only be brave once he has overcome fear, so these ”brave” men, were afraid, however, they did not give in, they defeated that obstacle, that’s what makes them valiant. You might be afraid, I know I am, but if we trust God, our goal, and in ourselves, we will prevail, and WE WILL BE BRAVE…

Image

 

And for a lil’ help, heres a beautiful verse… 

Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me. -Psalm 23:4

A true Gentleman

Standard

Image

I want to start this year with a Poem I wrote like 2 years ago, pretty ironic to start the year with an already written thing, but I thought you people might want to check it out, thanks 🙂

I don’t dress like a gentleman because I am one, but to remind myself that am not, and that am battling to become one, because I can only be a ”true” gentleman if I have God in my heart, and for having Him I would need a Pure, clean, and perfect heart …right? And not this ugly, dirty, and crumbled heart. But actually, sadly, He indeed is there, here, surrounded by sadness, violence, depression, and sin, but why? As of now, I can only suspect the only reason He is there, here, is for me to listen to Him,

and possibly, most certainly, He’ll be able to transform my heart, into a gentleman’s heart,
and with that kind of heart I will be able to become a true gentleman.

You see, God is here to love, to protect, to forgive, to transform, and to clean.

God is in a daily battle against us.
He battles our evil nature.
He battles against the dirt that is our darkness.
He battles for our weak souls.
He battles for our lives, and hearts.
He battles against us to listen to Him.
He wants us to follow Him. 

Love you guys! Have an excellent day!

Image

Suicide

Standard

Image

There are times in life, specially in my life, where I have felt like am not really accomplishing anything, like everything I’ve done in my life is waste time, that am not gonna fulfill those dreams, goals, and desires, that everything am about to do with my life is worthless, and uninspiring, and that my life has been the same as anyone else’s, but it’s not, nor it’s the same, it’s ok to want more out of our lives, but it’s not good for us to feel like we are worthless, because we aren’t, we have a purpose, we have a goal, wether we fufill that goal or not, we still should live, life is much more than just failures, depression and fear, wich is what makes us take the wrong choices, which is what makes us fail, which is what makes feel depressed, I know because I felt/feel depressed more than I should, and those thoughts lead me to think about ending it all, about being gone. But if I was supposed to end it all, what was the purpose of me being born? You see, the devil knows that we’ll move mountains, he knows that we have SOOO MUCH potential, and success right in front of us, that’s why those thoughts come, so that we don’t accomplish the wonders, so that we don’t save those THOUSANDS AND MILLIONS OF CRYING SOULS, I write this post because I know that am not alone when I say that fear, depression and death are big and ENORMOUS enemies, of our dreams, of our love, of our desires, I believe that I have a purpose, and I believe that you have one aswell. The devil just wants to be a stone in our path, so we should only pick it up and throw it away. And everytime you feel like death is upon you, like it is the end, go talk to the people that you love and that you know love you as much as you do, they are a great help, like my mom, she truly is an amazing person, and ofcourse there’s God who will always show you whats in store for you if you don’t give in.

Image

 

God bless you, and if you know someone that goes through depression like myself, send him this little letter, of encouragement, we are not alone. God bless your soul, for we are WINNERS!

Image